My Story

Had I been the author of my life, I would have written my life as a Hallmark movie, probably with a couple of pet Highland cows and a chaotic flower garden. However, it ended up more like a Lifetime Original movie.

I’ve used my writing as part of my healing journey, utilizing a particular character and subplot as a form of therapy. I believe stories have the power to give us hope and human connection in ways relationships don’t.  Writing has been an escape and a healing balm in my life.  I have been able to utilize writing as a way to not only heal myself from the trauma and abuse, but to help others.  I am passionate about my writing.  I pour that emotion, those experiences into my writing to inspire others.  To empower others.  To show others that they, too, can move their mountains. 

I’ve learned three undeniable truths:

#1 - What “Kills” You Makes You Stronger 

My husband killed my heart, mind, and soul many times over. In “dying” these ways, I have learned that it made me stronger. It took faith, love, courage—and God’s help—to press forward and forgive. I realized that I could not help my husband change. I could not save him, no matter how much I loved him. With God’s help, I was empowered to walk away, to file for divorce, and to start over.

It has taken many years to heal from over a decade of abuse and trauma my ex-husband caused. I have experienced the depth of sorrow, pain, and darkness. Now, I savor love, light, and truth. I am empowered with the faith and strength those trials provided. I am driven by centering my life around my Savior, Jesus Christ, and creating a better life for myself and my daughters.

Writing, therapy, and the Atonement have been instrumental in helping me heal from things I shouldn’t have had to recover from – betrayal and infidelity trauma, complex PTSD, depression, anxiety, and abuse trauma, all thanks to being married to a narcissist. Now, I can pay it forward. I’m following my intuition more and can see God’s hand in my life, gaining perspective about what I had to go through to get here. Everything that I’ve gone through, all of my life and work experience, has brought me where I need to be in this moment.

#2 - There Are Things Only Christ Can Heal

As I mentioned, I’ve spent years healing, releasing, and breaking through trauma, abuse, and generational issues. I have been given access to spiritual gifts, opportunities to develop those gifts, and to help others. I have come to know Christ on a deeper level through the use of these gifts, through prayer, and through asking for the help of angels and my family on the other side. In doing so, I have increased my testimony of prayer and Christ’s power to heal and bless us physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

I am reminded of the New Testament account of the woman with an issue of blood who had suffered with the affliction for over a decade and had been excluded from society. She had exhausted all efforts and resources for a cure. She knew a miracle—Christ—was her only hope. The woman had to push through the crowd to get to Him. Approaching Christ had been an act of bravery and immense faith. She had the faith to be healed simply by touching Christ’s garment. Despite the urgency to get to Jairus’ house, Christ stopped and acknowledged the woman, and he said to her, “Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague.” 

Despite all the therapy and work I did, it still wasn’t enough to fully heal the pain and trauma. I needed Him. I have an unshakable testimony and understanding of the Atonement. Jesus is the Christ. I have felt His presence and His love in a way that I hadn’t before because I’ve experienced healing that only He could give. 

#3 - You Are Not Broken, You Are Not a Burden, You Are LOVED

Christ is aware of each of us; we are not a burden to Him. Through working with these women, I’ve been able to access my spiritual gifts and have gained more gifts. My testimony and trust in God have grown as I strive to do His work. That trust did not come easily. I had a lot to work through to get to where I am today.

Rewiring my brain from the narcissistic abuse was challenging. We broke down the abusive programming. My parents, my daughters, and my friends all helped me to trust that I wasn’t a burden, that I was loved, and that I belonged. I was blessed with these people because God knew I needed these earthly angels to help me.

While I wouldn’t wish my trials on anyone, they afforded the growth that God knew I needed to become who He needs me to be, and have given me the ability to help others in similar circumstances. We know that there is opposition in all things. I had to go through hell to appreciate and connect to heaven.